Desperation!

Oh Lord save me from this pit
Oh, how I want to shout
My soul cries, thirsts for You
I want to cry and let it all out

I want to grab them
“Do you think about what you do?
God’s Love is in you and me!
How can you justify what you do?”

My soul wells within me
I am overwhelmed profoundly
Desperation settles deep within
How can you live as you do?

I cannot continue as nothing
Has happened as you do.
WAKE UP! Forgive not keeping tabs.
I am sick of it, God too.

Heal my wounded heart, Oh Lord!
Forgive me for the way
I acted because I know
I am at fault as well.

I hate the way I live
God, You gripped my HEART
I want You with all my heart!
I NEED You and have from the start!

I will not go without You.
Lead me; Break my pride
I want to Live for You
No turning back, no turning back.

I don’t want to be silent.
Silence is for the weak.
You called; I come running!
I need all that you have for me!

Bless me, Oh Lord.
I cannot live without Your Blessing
You are all I need
Don’t forgive me if I don’t forgive them.

All I need is you.
Send me where You want me
Do with me as You will
I am Yours and You are mine.

I will no longer be silent.
Bring forth your words from my mouth.
Let me be Your messenger
I am here, Your servant is listening.

Patience

I choose to wait on You
I, at all times, seem to
Have numerous things
To do like attached strings

Only You are in control-
Know what You have in store-
So now to you I come
And strongly implore

I need You with every sole
Atom in my small being
Only You, even when I offend,
hold my substance jointly, Friend.

Why don’t I approach
You all the more oft’
Every single time I opt
To do even the least?

I make up my mind
Today You will find
I am waiting on YOU
Carry Your Plan through.

Dependence

You, oh Lord, are my Rock
You are my Strong Tower
You sustain me around the clock
You comfort me in my dark hour

When will I fully live,
As I really depend on You?
When will I my heart give,
Over in trust to You?

My soul thirsts for You;
Come and fill me up.
What shall I then do?
I need you to fill my cup.

Only then will I be
Filled with joy, satisfied.
Now I bend my knee;
Take away my pride.

To you be the glory,
For You sustain me.
I surrender all for you;
Do what You will, break me.

So that I run to you since
You will always the battle win.
When my heart You rinse,
Daily of the blackness of sin.

Complicated, Interesting

Do I really know you?
Do you really know me?
How complicated can I be?
Am I that interesting to you?

I love the mystery of how you work
When you respond when talking to me
Your thought process is a quirk
Or is it? … how complicated can you be?

The innermost of your incredible being
Where God Almighty can only see
Never ceases to amaze all of me
No matter how many times seeing

That God has made us this way
So that we never get boring, me and you
This is all we can possibly say
But to Him a simple “thank you”

For all the mighty things He has done
For us before we even knew it
He showed His love while we were yet in it
That sin that He has in a battle won

Come one come all
Praise Him for His works of art
That you and me are atypical
Each of us is set apart

Life, A Race

"Life is a journey. a process. a race."
At times it takes an intensely fast pace.
You cannot keep up without end.
You cannot always stand and not bend.

Some day you will fall through.
What then will you do?
How will you ensure you do not,
When the friction of your grip gets hot?

Your strength cannot keep you
From the inevitable that pursues
This life that you lead
Will kill you if you don’t heed

Lean on Jesus, He will hold you up;
His happiness will fill your cup.
In the pursuit of a goal in life’s race,
Only He can help you keep the pace.

He will help you get to the end.
He will be the one to stop the bend.
He will fasten your grip when it gets hot.
He will ensure you fall through do not.

A Simple "Thank You"

Dear Mr. James Baker
I’m glad I didn’t send it later
Sorry that it came to this
I didn’t one of your letters miss
But I regret to say
I have a habit of “lazy day”

For weeks and weeks on end
I detested to write and then send
A very plain “Thank You”
And a few hugs in return to you

Your prayers have meant a lot
For God has given me all I have got
Give Him all of the praise
My leg doesn’t any more pain raise

Your small quotes inserted
I feel I more or less deserted
I’m sorry only now
I began to write to show you how
Much your mail and funnies
Inside cards printed on with bunnies
Meant in times of trouble
When I was in the depths of rubble

Here I give my thanks
Here I give you back some hugs
Here I cross the banks
Of the LAZY River full of bugs
To now write back
With a poem, for which I have a knack

Love + Hugs,

To Listen

To feel dry
To have not a word to say
To almost cry
If I was to have my way
I would try
To have many words to say
And would pry
To find one to hear and okay

To listen is to care
For me, to care is to share
What I have had to feel
What I have had to with deal
By the bright light of day
And the quiet of night lay

Black isn't a color

Black isn’t a color
Black is a state
Black is a Loveless soul
Black is a heart full of hate

He trades a heart of stone
Blacker than ashen soot
For a heart of flesh
Whiter than the snow

Thank Him for the new heart
Praise Him with a new song
Lift up His name and shout
He deserves All the glory

Release the sin blackened heart
You have nothing to lose
He gives you a new life
You have everything to gain

Put your foot out in faith
He has put the world before you
Share the exchange freely
Everyone needs to know

Don’t be afraid to show
The Grace He has bestowed
For you were once black
A heart full of hate

Me Versus You

What is my job here?
What is my calling?
Why do I want to shed a tear?
Why do I keep falling?

Can I trust you fully?
OF COURSE! You are God!
Why all the bully?
You are in control, God!

You have a flawless plan
You show the love in perfection
You show me your hand
Even in the election

Show me when you move
Show me what to do
I will follow in Your groove
I will choose You

Healing

Here I sit in the car
Listening to her
The other rebuke and scar
Jesus, why the bur?

Why all the strife?
Why all the bickering?
What can I do?
It hurts, it hurts, this strife.

Here I sit in the car
Why does all this matter?
Back and forth they scar
Does this fix the clatter?

Jesus, come and heal
Show them the Truth
Come and fix the deal
Not to show the tooth

I cannot stop them
I cannot heal
I cannot fix the hem
I cannot seal the deal

You have the power
You Love their souls
You can deluge with a shower
You can heal the holes

How, Then?

How can I hold it in?
I just want to burst out
How can I continue in sin?
I just want to shout

In pride, how can I hold up my chin
When Heaven washed my feet?
If I can raise my voice above the din,
Why don’t I pick up my feet?

Shout out the Truth
Shout out the LOVE
Live out the Truth
It comes from above

When you have shared,
You have fulfilled
What God has spared
What God has willed

How can I live in silence
When I have to live in Truth?
How can I not be a light?
When I have been changed by the Truth

Why do I feel the need to hush
When I need to speak out?
When someone asks
Why then do I blush?

Shout out the Truth
Shout out the LOVE
Live out the Truth
It comes from above

When you have shared,
You have fulfilled
What God has spared
What God has willed

How then do I live?
Do I shout it out?
Do I live in hushed silence?
Do I in Truth live out?

How then do I live?
Do I close my mouth?
Do I burst forth and let it out as a sieve?
Do I simply live in love?

Shout out the Truth
Shout out the LOVE
Live out the Truth
It comes from above

When you have shared,
You have fulfilled
What God has spared
What God has willed

I will live in the Love
That came from above
I will live as a light
That I cannot fight

I will shout it out
Because keeping it in
Isn’t an option
It would be a sin

ENOUGH

I want to pour out my soul
It feels like an empty hole
I don’t know any exact goal
I want to dig and hide as a mole

As He died for me on the pole
He gave me a life goal
He listens to me pour out my soul
He cleans the hiding mole

Only He cares enough
Only He fills me up
Only He carries my stuff
Only He comforts enough

Only He has the perfect cuff
Only He is in the buff
Only He will love me enough
Only He matters enough

I don’t have to hide as a mole
Only He can carry my stuff
I don’t have to run without a goal
Only He matters enough