Catharsis

I don't know where I am
I just know that I need
To get back to You

You are whom I need
To find that indeed
I have taken heed

I know it isn't true
My time I have used up
And that fact I rue

I need, with all I am,
To pursue all that You
Have said to be I am

Why do I not heed
Everything I know is true
And that planted Seed

Consume me now
I give myself to You
Use me; You know how

I live for you
Please teach me
What to do

How can I say
That a follower I am
Of your great Way?

I have traveled
So far and I
Am so baffled

Pull me back.
Wrap me in Your arms
Teach me not to slack.

Your help I need
I am Yours
I concede.

Simple Release

I feel so confused
I feel I have misused
My time, my heart
And need a new start

I give You my all
For this is all
I know to do
When a new start is due

Forgive my blindness
Share Your kindness
I am ready here
You my heart cheer

Use me as You will
Cleanse me with skill
Only you can statisfy
Fill me by and by

I release it all to You
Do with me as pleases You
Teach me your ways
Guide me all of my days

I need you
I want to
Want you
More

Teach me.

Beautiful, Divine

Thank you for the snow
That shines in the sun glow
Your beauty divine
Is visible to eyes mine

Your love is cleary there
When I can sit and stare
In the warmth of my room
And see the cold not in doom

Thank you for sustaining me
Even when I don't see
All that You have in store
Even when closed is the door

You have blessed me
Beyond what I can see
Every breath is a gift
And my soul You lift

Thank You for cleansing my soul
Of the blackness within the whole
Of my heart promising
To never forsake me.

You are.

Desperation!

Oh Lord save me from this pit
Oh, how I want to shout
My soul cries, thirsts for You
I want to cry and let it all out

I want to grab them
“Do you think about what you do?
God’s Love is in you and me!
How can you justify what you do?”

My soul wells within me
I am overwhelmed profoundly
Desperation settles deep within
How can you live as you do?

I cannot continue as nothing
Has happened as you do.
WAKE UP! Forgive not keeping tabs.
I am sick of it, God too.

Heal my wounded heart, Oh Lord!
Forgive me for the way
I acted because I know
I am at fault as well.

I hate the way I live
God, You gripped my HEART
I want You with all my heart!
I NEED You and have from the start!

I will not go without You.
Lead me; Break my pride
I want to Live for You
No turning back, no turning back.

I don’t want to be silent.
Silence is for the weak.
You called; I come running!
I need all that you have for me!

Bless me, Oh Lord.
I cannot live without Your Blessing
You are all I need
Don’t forgive me if I don’t forgive them.

All I need is you.
Send me where You want me
Do with me as You will
I am Yours and You are mine.

I will no longer be silent.
Bring forth your words from my mouth.
Let me be Your messenger
I am here, Your servant is listening.

Patience

I choose to wait on You
I, at all times, seem to
Have numerous things
To do like attached strings

Only You are in control-
Know what You have in store-
So now to you I come
And strongly implore

I need You with every sole
Atom in my small being
Only You, even when I offend,
hold my substance jointly, Friend.

Why don’t I approach
You all the more oft’
Every single time I opt
To do even the least?

I make up my mind
Today You will find
I am waiting on YOU
Carry Your Plan through.

Dependence

You, oh Lord, are my Rock
You are my Strong Tower
You sustain me around the clock
You comfort me in my dark hour

When will I fully live,
As I really depend on You?
When will I my heart give,
Over in trust to You?

My soul thirsts for You;
Come and fill me up.
What shall I then do?
I need you to fill my cup.

Only then will I be
Filled with joy, satisfied.
Now I bend my knee;
Take away my pride.

To you be the glory,
For You sustain me.
I surrender all for you;
Do what You will, break me.

So that I run to you since
You will always the battle win.
When my heart You rinse,
Daily of the blackness of sin.

Complicated, Interesting

Do I really know you?
Do you really know me?
How complicated can I be?
Am I that interesting to you?

I love the mystery of how you work
When you respond when talking to me
Your thought process is a quirk
Or is it? … how complicated can you be?

The innermost of your incredible being
Where God Almighty can only see
Never ceases to amaze all of me
No matter how many times seeing

That God has made us this way
So that we never get boring, me and you
This is all we can possibly say
But to Him a simple “thank you”

For all the mighty things He has done
For us before we even knew it
He showed His love while we were yet in it
That sin that He has in a battle won

Come one come all
Praise Him for His works of art
That you and me are atypical
Each of us is set apart